Home late last night in the rain. Bed. Sundry dreams and then I wake. I lay there with a particular feeling in me that I can’t identify. I reach over and switch the radio on for the news. Then a song comes on. I know it in the first few bars, a song I have associated with Jennie. And as I lay there I suddenly realise, she got married yesterday. That’s what I feel, that’s what the song means. I roll over onto my back. I wonder what I feel. Nothing much. Somewhere, far away, the woman I loved once upon a time has married another man. Then I fall asleep again.
I need to know now. Not so much for her. For me. If I’m right, if I can feel it from so far away and know it, what does it mean?